An Epic of Time Wasted

Yesterday I found a bag of weed on the ground walking down Treasure Street. It is pretty ironic that I found such a treasure on treasure st. Anyways by the help of smoking some of that weed and talking to my dear, best friend Dangie, I have come to the realization that bad things happen to good people. Dangie is probably one of the nicest, most amazing person that I know in existence. She only deserves the best but for some reason bad things keep happening to her. I just don't understand. I am happy she is now out of the hospital because I was worried. Hopefully they take the tube out of her really soon. Now she has to deal with a few other obstacles in her life and it just sucks especially since I can't do anything to help her. It is sad that we live so far away from each other.
I found out a few days ago that my mom went to the dermatologist to get a mole on her head checked out and it was found to be cancerous. I was really taken aback when I heard of this. I guess they should be able to just cut it out but I am still nervous about it. Thinking about it just makes me go insane. Life without my mom is just unimaginable.
I really think and hope that the only reason bad things happen to good people is so that they become better and stronger people for being able to withstand all the hits that they received. Once the bad things pass there will only be good things that will happen to them.
And please answer me this. Do I have to be a fat, crazy bitch to get a guy? I'm going to stop being nice, I'm to stop caring, I'm going to stop trying. Obviously having a girl that will actually treat them right is a big turnoff for guys. They just want to be treated like shitbags. It's completely ridiculous. Why do men and women have to play games with each other? Why can't people just be honest with each other? Why do we have to play hard to get? Oh well I am going off on a rant. I am just tired of having to put some much work in getting what I actually deserve. I deserve a guy that will treat me well. I do not deserve to be treated like shit. I think the good girls should get what they deserve. But that will never happen. The bad girl always gets the guy.
Someday I hope that I get what I deserve and that a guy is fighting to be with me. I am tired of doing all the fighting. I am finished trying so hard, if you're interested then you can fight to get me. I'm exhausted and I can't deal with my heart beating 100 miles a minute.

I just remembered this song and I hope that I find a guy that I can play this to someday.