i have finally understood that it is very difficult to trust anyone. i used to be so trusting but now i've realized that it is very stupid to be that way. there are really only two people that i can completely trust. and that is dangie and crystal. i thought there were more but in this world you have to protect yourself. it is rather depresssing when you really think about it. people just lie and backstab each other and just use one another in life. people you consider friends sometimes don't give a shit about you but they make you believe that they do. it's so hard for anyone to be optimistic these days when people turn this world so ugly. people make the world hard to live in because people just care about themselves nowadays they don't give a shit about other people's feelings or other people's well-being. it makes me sad.