Dr. Lektroluv is Amazing!

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I didn't think it was possible to feel so many emotions at once. I'm sad,angry, afraid, tired, happy, and excited. My friends aren't coming to visit which makes me sad. I'm angry because it seems like somebody back at home is trying to take my place and this person has always made me feel like shit since the 7th grade. This shouldn't be a surprise to me. But I feel silly for being upset about it. I'm afraid that my friends will eventually forget about me and it'll be like I never existed. I'm tired because I had to wake up at 8:30. I'm happy because I love everybody here in St.Augustine. I'm glad I chose this city to live in. I'm excited because it's the weekend and everything will be fantastic tonight.

it could be like we never knew each other at all

I hate being mean. I hate hurting people's feelings. Because of this I end up doing things that end up hurting people even more. Why do I do this? Not only am I going to hurt them but in the end I'm just going to hurt myself. I need to stop being a pussy and just say exactly what is on my mind. This is something that should have been done months ago. Ugh it needs to happen sooner than later. I need to go with what I'm feeling not with what I should be feeling. Why is it so difficult?

Likes
smell of gasoline
pepsi
bonfires
drinking games
laughter
reading
singing in the car
writing random shit
giraffes
college
life
family
friends
eskimo kisses
sushi
partying
chilling
relaxing
smoking
pillow talk
sleeping
beer
rum & coke
jager
road trips
traveling
thinking
learning
dancing
family guy
memories
impressions
music

One Step Closer

Everything we do affects us in some way. I realize that it's true. It's insane to think about that. Even the clothes you choose to wear. Things as simple as that affects the way you act or the things you do. The words you say and the words you don't say. The way you put those words into a sentence. The way you say those words. The good things you do and the bad things you do. The friends you decide to spend your time with. The people you decide to make enemies with. The things you consume. The drugs you decide to try. The way you act towards people. Everything happens for a reason. I think if more people came to this realization they would live fuller lives. They would go out and enjoy their lives. If you go through life doing the same routine everyday nothing is going to change. You are going to continue living the same mundane life. You might want things to be different but that is not going to happen. You have to go out and do something different. Try new things, see new things, learn new things, meet new people. That's how I want to live my life. I have done some stupid things in my life but with some of those stupid things I have done some great things. I know there is still so much out there. Life is full of mystery and that's what is so great about it but that's what is so scary about it. The future can be really terrifying to think about. The decisions we make right now will affect our future. It's crazy and makes me understand why I am so terrible at making decisions. But I am deciding to end this blog now. That was a more simple decision, of course. Goodnight.

New Year's Resolutions 2009

new year'​s resol​ution​
-eat bette​r
-​exerc​ise
-be an overa​ll bette​r perso​n
-​under​stand​ mysel​f bette​r
-​start​ makin​g decis​ions inste​ad of quest​ionin​g mysel​f all the time
-listen to even more music