I am finished doing things to please others. This is my life and I'm going to enjoy it the way I want to enjoy it. I don't know what I want to do but I'm definitely not going to let someone force me to decide right away. It sucks that because of this, Wade and I are no longer speaking. He wants all or nothing. So he doesn't even want to be friends. It's too bad but I'm sick of people making me feel bad. Every time I come to Sarasota I end up feeling like shit. That is why I'm just hanging out with people I actually want to hang out with and want to hang out with me. This trip has really shown me who my true friends are. It has also shown me that I have really changed since I moved away from home. I have definitely changed for the better. I'm really loving the person that I am becoming. I used to think people who were searching for themselves were crazy but I now understand what they mean. I am searching for myself. It's a very confusing but fun adventure. I'm learning more about myself everyday.
On a different note..it's nice to be on vacation. Sarasota sucks but it's been nice seeing my friends and just relaxing. I've missed sleeping in my bed. Oh and I've put some more thought into tattoos. I still don't think i will get one but I thought of another tattoo idea. There's this song called Green Hell and Pepper sings it and it has a line that says "the sun screams louder at night." I'm going to have my tattoo say that and then have the heroes eclipse.( pictured above) I probably won't get one but it's fun to think about. Who knows.
I hadn't blogged in a while but I finally did. yay!
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